I don't know what my problem has been lately; I am in a funk I don't like it. It started a few weeks ago and its just getting worse. I'm just not myself; I'm down on everything. 'Why should I bother cleaning; I hate where we live.' 'Why should I do my hair and put makeup on; I'm fat and ugly anyway.' 'Why should I do anything with my blog, no one really likes it anyway.'
I HATE being negative. That is so not who I want to be. And normally I'm not like that; but like I said--I'm in a funk!
I don't know what is causing it. Maybe its stress from starting back at work. I don't particularly feel stressed; I mean I do feel sad about leaving the kids; but I only work 5 hour shifts 3 days a week. Its not like I'm gone that long.
Maybe its my birth control that I started a few weeks ago. I am am much more weepy than I usually am; crying at commercials and online videos. That is really not me!!
Whatever is causing it I want it to stop that is for sure. I know it will eventually; it always does; but right now its hard to see past it to a time when I will be myself again.